That awkward moment
It’s happened to us all. The awkard silence between you and an ex when you have no idea what to say.
I got that today. I have to tell you, it was nasty.
I don’t know what it is about her and me. I have the most excellent time, think she is out of my head, then all of a sudden she gets in touch or something about here pops up out of nowhere. I think its just fate now.
So, this weekend I have spoke about her a few times to various people. I haven’t spoke to about here for a while, but she came up in conversation. It didn’t bother me as I was in control of the topic of chat. I was discussing that nothing was bothering me and all was cool in my head (which it is).
Last night was a little different. Being a Bank Holiday, it was time to drink booze. Sun + Booze = Light headedness and silly talking. A few of us were having a few beers and a bite to eat and conversation changed to what was happening later. My friend was going to meet my ex. My friend was the reason I met my ex. So she was saying that she was going to hook up with the ex and she ok with the whole situation if I turned up. I said I wasn’t comfortable with it, as it has almost been two years since I last saw her. Me and my chum got talking about her, although I was quite surprised as we never talk about it. I pestered her and her fella lots when we first split, so I never talk about it now.
So, I don’t know how it happened, but my friend started talking about when we split and she mentioned that someone said something which was pretty much the reason we split. Ramble ramble. But one thing got to me which really hurt my feelings. I learnt that some people lie and create situations which doesn’t help anyone. A certain accusation was made against me and it seriously pissed me off. I got a bit upset by it. Not good.
So, the next day. I haven’t seen her for a long time and guess what happened? Well done. I bumped into her in front of the beans in the supermarket.
I was hunting for honey with my pal and I saw a certain shape of a girl I used to know. I started at the feet and thought I recognised them, then slowly scanned up and saw that the rest of her matched the person I knew aswell.
I stood there a bit confused and baffled. My friend chatted to her while I stood there totally confused. She looked even more confused. I haven’t heard that nervous ramble for a while. A wave of jellyness hit my body. So hard I thought I was going to fall over. It was the most awkward 2 and a half minutes of my life. She looked like she was trying to think of an excuse to move on and I think we were aswell. Eventually, we got out of there and discussed the odd moment.
It actually felt horrible, but I made it through almost unscathed. I think my friend felt the tension and helped out as much as poss (thank you).
But, yeah. I don’t want that to happen for a while.
Some wierd things have come out of the chats about her this weekend. Some good and some truly bizarre. But i’m cool with it.
